What’s The Deal With Social Anxiety Disorder?

I have always known that I am very introverted and live my life in my head. I often wonder if I had actually said something to someone or if I had only played out the conversation in my head. That makes me wonder if I am not communicating my thoughts or if I am repeating myself. Who knows?

I isolate myself to the point where is little real communication. I have done well conquering my depression with years of medication trials and psychotherapy, but anxiety is constant. I did not realize that my introversion, isolation, and difficulty with conversation was Social Anxiety Disorder. When presented with the symptoms I had to agree. My behavior of avoidance of social situations was fear driven.

Now is the time that my fears have to find a connection with thoughts. I didn’t know that there were thoughts mixed with my fear. My panic attacks felt like physiological responses. I understood the stressors in my life but how do they develop into full-blown panic attacks and drive me to isolation? I bought a four-dollar teddy bear.

Published by: Beverly Hughes

My journey through depression and anxiety has been a long fought battle. I have a Masters Degree in Counseling, but that only helped me to understand clinical language. I needed help and have learned so much about what I could do to help myself.


8 thoughts on “What’s The Deal With Social Anxiety Disorder?”

    1. I just started a therapy module today that addresses Social Anxiety. I was anxious about talking to my therapist about it and was shaking inside.We have a great therapeutic relationship and I have never felt that way talking about other issues. She put the puzzle together and showed me the symptoms and I took it like a kick in the gut. I had no idea that my fears in social situations was anything but introversion and my INFJ personality. I prescribed myself a teddy bear to sooth that inner child. Do you know your personality type? I am constantly studying typology.

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    2. P.S. Do you have a lot of triggers in social situations? For me it is crowded spaces, loud talk or music, drinking, vulgar language, confrontation,rude or childish behavior. If I can’t escape, I find some way to distance myself. At family gatherings I will go clean the kitchen and wash dishes. I rarely sit but stand with my back to a wall…maybe I am trying to disappear. I pick up on other people’s emotions easily and get overwhelmed. I’m just the weird one that no one understands.

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      1. The picking up on others’ emotions is TOTALLY my problem. I have been meaning to write about it for a reaaalllly long time. *sigh*

        No, I don’t get ‘triggered,’ per se… well, maybe I do. In social situations where people are acting like they do not like me or want me around I withdraw and start telling myself that there are lots of things wrong with me.


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