In my studies of anxiety I have come to see that there is a possibility of inner peace. I took a walk. As I took each step I thought of what life would be without the disturbance of anxiety. I began to open my mind to a gental feeling that exists without tension. I thought of how my existence would be without tension and anxiety and I could perceive possibilities.
Have I allowed these negative energies to live within me and have succumed to rumination, worry, and fear of the unknown? Is it possible to stop worry and feel completely relaxed? I understand that hypomania and generalized anxiety disorder are enmeshed. I’m not concerned about what elements belong to its gven name. I discovered the mixture while in a hypomanic state as I was studying how to overcome GAD.
With Bipolar Type 2 I cycle from depression to dysthymia to some sense of normalcy to hypomania. The cycle is unpredictable so I decided to mark each day with an alphabetic code for referencing each stage so that I can draw a graph over time. I am marking my calendar each day with the code as I perceive my mood to have been. I predict that most of my time I reside in dysthymia, but I will have to see. I suppose this is a way of discovering order from chaos.
I feel good about that walk. There seems to be more thinking room outside.
Peace be with you.