Posisive Use Of Anxiety

Lately, I have experienced constant tremors that I feel inside and appear some in my hands. It isn’t a debilitating thing, but it is uncomfortable and very distracting. A certain amount of anxiety is useful and necessary for human survival, but I am not in danger of being electrocuted or subject to be a bear’s next meal. I have sought out ways to use this unwelcomed energy positively.

I am a book person. I don’t usually pick fiction. I buy books to gain knowledge, but I have a library of great books that I want to read but feel they are a daunting task. The books are educational, so it takes perseverance to get through them. I think I have come upon the answer to using this anxiety and tackling my ever increasing library. Speed-reading.

In graduate school, I took only one class each quarter, because of the class reading requirements. I’m sure you can understand the difficulties of reading, digesting, and comprehending the intriquite theories such as Existential Therapy can be. That is the type of book to which I that I gravitate. I have a ton of them with only the first few chapters read.

The jumpy little motions of my tremors are not unlike the short nervous movements that are made by the eyes when reading so, how do I harness this energy. I bought a book! The first tip was to stop pronouncing the words in your head like we were taught to read aloud as children. That’s going to be tough! The book says that if you are reading word for word and pronouncing it in your head, you can only read as fast as you talk. STOP RIGHT THERE! I’m a Southerner. We don’t speak fast because it is hot down here. All joking aside that may be a real issue for me. I speak slowly, think slowly, and listen with intent. This culturally driven process works pretty well for me (sometimes) for comprehension and creative thought. I am hindered with memory loss, too. So I am wondering if pushing the speed will help the comprehension and retention or will it become a simple eye exercise.

OK guys, if you are a speed reader, I need some tips and tricks. I also want to challenge the rest of you to look for positive uses for the shaky stuff.

Peace be with you.

Published by: Beverly Hughes

My journey through depression and anxiety has been a long fought battle. I have a Masters Degree in Counseling, but that only helped me to understand clinical language. I needed help and have learned so much about what I could do to help myself.


9 thoughts on “Posisive Use Of Anxiety”

      1. It’s perfectly fine with me if I am the only one who understands my lame attempt at humor. I laugh in the dark. It’s like what happens when you think of something absolutely hilarious at a funeral.

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  1. Hmmm…. I skim. I know the words I read.
    Whenever I read a book with a lot of odd turns of phrase or dialogue written the way people talk, I have to slow down.

    I also recommend audio books. You can speed them up. 🙂


    1. I’m trying to find a way to push through tought distractions. The books I read are complex thought like Philosophy and Psychology. My quirky personality is “Idealist.” I suppose I want to make the world a calm peaceful place from my isolation in the wilderness of Alabama. Ha! For real,I love these complex theories and I’m frustrated that my mind wanders off into a tangled blackberry bush when I try to read.

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